Category Archives: Spirit Quest

Deep Water – Adventure of a Lifetime

I asked God recently to help me… To lead me down a path to whatever it was that would invoke a deep, emotional healing within me, and those who I have hurt.

It came to me in a vision, a spirit quest. I needed to travel, it would only be a quick journey, but I had to go now, and if I didn’t, i would regret it for the rest of my life.

It was a really big pill to swallow, because I had already made agreements to be somewhere else… But as the mind of God flowed through my head… It was not something to refute. I would jump… And so i jumped.

The journey had 3 aspects.

First, the crystal quest. I was to find a radiant, divine crystal at the tucson gem show, and bring it to my friend the sage in Asheville, NC. While i was at the gem show i would connect with people there who i needed to connect with, and I would find those people by posting about it publicly and inviting them to come out.

Second, in Asheville there were several relationships with whom I had tarnished our relationships through negligence and lack of participation… Regardless of who did what in the past, I needed to set things right.

And finally… I needed to reconnect with Teal, in Utah. Her and I had a big falling out after December 21st, 2012, and it was time for me to reconnect. More importantly though, I crafted an invitation for her to, at her leisure, come out and visit my family and I in Avalon.

The message seemed pretty clear… With the way the world is right now, it is a requirement that we come together in spiritual union to reach as many people as possible to open the collective heart and move humanity forward through this transition.

From my minds eye I saw the rift that lay between us, my emotional body frozen over with ice, and my spirit unable to go to the depths of that emotional place.

And so I began thawing it, opening up my heart, connecting in spirit to all of those who I intended to heal with. Sage, Holly, and Teal..

And it seems as though the emotional pain that I had my hand in ran much deeper than i had previously even been consciously aware of. It was made clear to me… I am not very emotionally sensitive… And I want to be.

In fact, it had hit me in that moment that this is what I actually am going to see Teal about. She is a mature female, matching the energy of the Queen of Cups, the emotional aspect of the emotions, as depicted by the Four Elements through the Tarot.

My connection with her, when it was severed, a part of me went into hibernation.

And now, opening that part in me again, has brought a torrential flow of water, emotion, connection happening in me alone…it has exploded from me in so many forms, but it will not be complete until her and I can talk, connect, and open up the channels for open communication once again.

She is the master of that realm… And I can learn a lot from her.

In this moment… I have actually been denied access to visiting her. It was my fault, as the torrent of flow poured from me I sent her some messages that, out of context of everything I was going through, sounded as though I was coming to take her away, or cause problems in her world. It was a very big blunder, and came from my own lack of temperance to my newly opened emotional body…

I respect their decision, and thus I am praying that my message is heard. I have only the purest intents of reconnection. I am still coming to salt lake city… And I hope that I am received by them and the grace of God.


Adventures in Tucson!

If i was to write a blog about my experience the last few days… Right now… Heres what it would sound like.

I got here very early in the morning. This happened:

So heres the energy of tucson, so you can get an idea of where we’re at.

The vibe of tucson feels like being stuck between a crystal and a hard place. Obviously, the system exists down here in its broke-ass state, just as it does everywhere else, so alot of the problems are the same across the board. Low income jobs, nobody feels like they can do what theyre passionate about, stress of money is bringing everything down…

But much like with many other places where spirituality has room to grow, there is a very interesting spiritual dynamic that is happening here, in between the cracks of the system, in the grooves of the crystal theyre stuck against.

Yet, even at the gem shows, there is still a heavy set weight of unaware consciousness, even in the presence of all of the crystals at the show. Its almost as if people are drawn like magnets to the crystals, (all of the shows are packed!) yet they have no idea about why.

I started to feel really depressed halfway through the afternoon today, because it seemed like everywhere i went, there was about a 90-10 split between vendors who were selling crystals to make money, and those who venerated these brilliant pieces of gods creation, and selling them because they genuinely love the crystals.

Equally so i saw a lot of customers wandering the gem shows that literally just weren’t paying attention to whats going on. Perhaps i’m the weird one, I try and take in EVERYTHING .___.

I made a video about it too!

Heck, I even saw a few hippies who gave me looks of disgust like I just wasn’t good enough for them… Not many tho. I mostly got good vibes from hippy folks!

The good thing was that being around so many crystals, my feelings were able to resolve just going to a place of supreme humility and asking all of the crystals around me for help in my feelings. It was a very interesting experience, and I started paying attention even more…. Interesting how that works.

Then, not long later, this One crystal told me to take it! (And yes, One is capitalized like that on purpose), to which I stood there contemplating the morality of such an act, (i heard in my head that the guy was a swindler and that I needed to put it in my pocket right now…), but i continued to stand there until the guy came over and changed the moment into a new one, where i walked away empty handed wondering if I actually did the right thing by leaving it there.

In fact, I made a video about it.

The resolution to this story was that the next day my friend Ken showed up with that crystal in hand. He bartered with the guy and got it so low that it was practically free. Thanks Ken!

But theres something else thats been going on, much more amazing.

Its the connection with the brilliant folks who live here, and in the surrounding area, and then even some who came to visit from afar!

I had several people come to the spirit science gathering, at one point a crowd of at least 10 stood in a circle gathering in the morning! Of course, people get busy, so through-ought the day we had everywhere from 8 people to 3 or 4 walking around together looking at all of the crystals. Grand total at the end of the experience, there were probably about 20 people who came out for the gathering, and another 10 that we met along our journeys who recognized me.

I had a really great time with all of them. Its clear that while they all come from their own worlds with their own worldviews, they really all share the same core that, at the end of the day, they’re very caring people.

All of them have brought something new into my life as I hope I have done so for them, and I am excited to say that upon my return to tucson next year, I will be thrilled to meet up with them all again!



Look I’m going to blog about the crystals more I am sure, but for right now heres some pictures!